Trepidation [trep-i-dey-shuhn] – tremulous fear, alarm, or agitation; synonyms: apprehension, dismay, nervousness, uneasiness
Since late last year I have been working on a project that is really big. Not only is it big, it is happening at a speed for which I was unprepared. So many times, I have said to myself, “I can’t believe this is actually happening.”
Because of the boldness of this project, I’m nervous about it. In the words of my wonderful wife: “It’s exciting but it makes my stomach hurt.”
So, I called a buddy of mine who serves as my leadership coach and confessed my trepidation.
Before I tell you what he said, it’s important to know that my trepidation does not stem from a lack of confidence in the “right-ness” of this project. I am in continual prayer about it; I have consulted the Scriptures and determined that this vision is in line with the Word and will of God; I have sought input from spiritually mature counselors; I have constantly checked my motives to ensure that this goal brings glory to God instead of me; and I have evaluated the project against the standards of God’s Kingdom vision and values. As a result, I sincerely believe that the direction I am moving is one in which God has pointed me.
But since it involves a walk through the unknown, I’m still nervous about it.
To which “Coach” replied: “Rusty, your trepidation is a reminder of your need for God. It’s telling you that you will not be able to accomplish this project without God’s help. You can’t do it on your own and you know it, which is why you’re experiencing some fear. But that’s o.k. because God is with you. And your trepidation is prompting you to seek Him and to rely on His strength for you.”
That’s why my coach is “The Coach”!
I’m still nervous and my stomach still tightens a bit when I consider the magnitude of what I’m trying to do. But now, I am embracing and welcoming my trepidation as the Spirit’s nudge for me to keep seeking God. That change in perspective has given me a whole new approach to my goals.
What is your trepidation telling you?
If you don’t have any trepidation, then your goals in life are probably too small.
If you feel some trepidation in some area of your life, then, “Congratulations!” You have a challenge in front of you that can bring you closer to God and allow you to experience His faithfulness to you in fresh ways. Embrace this moment, because your trepidation is saying, “You need God.”
And that’s a good place to be.